I'm absolutely shocked. I'm heartbroken right now.
A friend of mine died about an hour and a half ago in a car wreck.
He was one of the only people who was nice to me when it mattered.... when no one else was. His heart was soooo big and he was such a party guy. I love him so much.... I'm in denial right now that it was him. I refuse to acknowledge that he's gone until I see his body in that damn casket.
It hurts too fucking much to think that he's actually....
Whatever.
- Mood:
frustrated
It's great to see that after some crappy things happened off at college, I come home and see that. That just amplifies my mood sooooo much.
I really need to buy a scale for my dorm.
More great news..... NO ROOMMATE THIS SEMESTER!
- Mood:
content - Music:Tell Shannon Her Crafts Are Ready - HeavyHeavyLowLow
I just want her to hold me at the moment. =/
Okay, I swear I'll update more now that I'm settled. =]
- Mood:
calm - Music:HeavyHeavyLowLow - Tell Shannon Her Crafts Are Ready
So, on average, I update about once a month, so I want to change that.
I got a late acceptance to the university of my choice....FTW. Cue the extrememe excitement.
=]
- Music:Miley Cyrus - Goodbye (shut up, it's a good song)
Life is just.....
suck, sometimes...
amazing, at others.
[/fact-telling]
I've decided I want to be a bartender when I grow up.
=]
[[Thought I'd share this with you guys. If you have questions about something in the message, ask me. I'll tell you.]]
Well, everything's not okay, but when is it ever? Every since dad yelled at me this place has been a wreck. Mom moved out and into grandma's again. I don't know if she plans on coming back. I've been depressed every since that day, and I just don't feel like seeing anyone, or barely moving from the bed.
It will pass soon, but I don't know how soon. I really want mom back. I want Randa to stop dating David and admit that it was a screwed up thing for her to do. I want Jadah to stop being shoved up her boyfriend's ass (ditto with Randa). I want a best friend that won't screw me over. && most importantly I'm ready for this weekend... I really hope we're still coming there. I honestly believe it will help me get out of the dumps and stop feeling sorry for myself (believe it or not, I'm usually REALLY happy now days. && I hate feeling sorry for myself, because I don't want others to feel sorry for me; I want them to care, of course, but not pity... I hate that).
I honestly haven't felt this bad since the 7th grade. I just need to get away from here. I think it's about time for me to move away permantly. There's too many people here that know me too well. I think if I move I'll be able to start over and be the person I wish I could be here. Happy. && not so angry at everyone all the time. && not so expectant of people. No one is 100% dependable, but I'm too close to people here to NOT lean on them the way I have been.
If I move, I can be free. And independent.
Anyways, that's my rant for now. =] I can't wait to see all of you again.
- Mood:
crushed
Well, I feel absolutely idiotic. I didn't know The Gunpowder Plot was an actual event. V for Vendetta is one of my favorite movies, and I didn't know it was based off of an actual event.
XD
- Mood:
giddy - Music:Wicked - Dancing Through Life
&& tonight I'm going to buy movie popcorn... but I'm not going to watch a movie... I might regret that, though.
I love my friends.
- Mood:
loved - Music:A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover
Still alive and kicking! I know it's been a while.... Yesterday was the one year anniversary of my grandmother's death and this week's been kind of rough. :/
A lot of drama has been going on in choir... something's always happening in there, though.
Bye, and have a happy Thanksgiving!
- Mood: calm
:]
But my best friend.. she made 3rd chair in her section. I was SOOO flippin proud of her. I was screaming and yelling and almost in tears. I was probably more excited for her than I would have been for myself. XD
Hope she does well at All-State!
Much love.
- Mood:
okay - Music:Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am
...with the 17 year old version of Ken Osmond, a.k.a. Eddie Haskell.
Yummy.
Ugh, school is about to begin again! I'm not ready... I still need to read Wuthering Heights and Les Miserables and write essays on both. :/
So... DH was the best in the series, I think. I really don't feel like posting my mini-nonprofessional-review right now, but I definitely will soon. I'm very sad that it's the last book. I keep expecting to go to HP sites and have people guessing titles for the next book and wonder what will happen... I will miss JK's hints about what's to come (though some of it didn't ever happen, anyways). I was really suprised at DH... I didn't think it would be that great... but it is SO good. I'm kind of disappointed in JK, though. I think she went kind of fan-ficcy on us, just a little. =] And I'm pissed about the deaths.
Also, when I get a job, I'm getting a paid account (hopefully) because I really want my page to look SNAZZY.
Alright.
Love you guys.
Talk to you soon, hopefully.
- Mood:
tired - Music:Within Temptation - The Howling
I don't think I'm ready to reveal to the world what I'm dealing with.
No... no, I'm not. I can't even type it out.
Oh, well.
- Mood: crushed
- Music:Simple and Clean remix - Utada Hikaru
I'm afraid I won't be on the computer very much for the rest of my vacation. =(
Much love and stay well!
- Mood:
happy - Music:Simple and Clean - Utada Hikaru
While I'm not totally sure what career field I'll be entering, I realized earlier today that I definitely want to either major or minor in English.
XD
I can't wait!
- Mood:
relaxed
Stupid ACT.
Stupid ACT prep course.
Go away. Leave me alone.
[/angst]
Heheh. Anyways... I'm starting to take pictures and write again, and that's good because photography and writing help me stay
Love you guys. Have a great summer!
- Mood:
creative - Music:A Change of Pace - Loose Lips Sink Ships
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